=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= Goodbyes -------- As any of you who read this zine on a regular basis know, I am a fairly regular writer for F.U.C.K. as well as the editor's girlfriend. Neither of these things is true any longer. I hope you have enjoyed the files I have written as much as I enjoyed writing them, and, if you feel inclined, settle in for my last file here about goodbyes. An essential part of life is all about endings. Some are celebrated, others are times of sadness; more often, each ending has a little bit of both. From the moment you end your term inside of your mother's womb you are already experiencing the surprise and fears associated with ending one thing and beginning another. Each milestone of life is associated with an ending - becoming a teenager, graduating from high school, turning 20, graduating from college... all of these constitute moments of joy and sadness over things to come and things that have passed. Then there is the the End, where you become yet another well dressed part of the earth's soil. The nice thing about endings is that there are beginnings that follow. If a relationship ends, you can look forward to beginning a new one. If you lose your job, you can get excited about finding a new one. But all of this is very hard to think about while you are experiencing them. I know this better than anybody. I have led a troubled life full of endings and not so great beginnings, and at the peak of each one I wonder how I will make it through it. Even as I write this I feel like a kitten out in the rain wondering where her mother is. Still, I know that a time will come when I can look back on this as just another one of life's mistakes, as a time where I learned more about myself and how the world works. This how we should all see endings - as a time for reflection upon what made the end come, and how you can prevent this sort of ending again. My father always said that everyone gets a pound of shit in their lives, and whoever is responsible for handing it out sure doesn't spread it out evenly over a lifetime. I think that way about endings, too. We can deal with deaths and lost loves and lost jobs because we know that everything works out for the best in the end, no matter what. Sometimes all the endings clump together, and it seems like we can't take anymore, but most of us do our best to move on. I like to look back on the endings I have endured and think about the things that I never would have experienced if the ending hadn't happened. So yes, in a way I am glad I packed up and moved out here to Colorado, because I would have missed so much in life if I hadn't. I wouldn't have come out here in the first place if I hadn't ended a relationship back home, so that ending was good, too. All it takes is a different perspective and the world looks a lot different. So, the next time you think you can't hack the goodbye shit anymore, take some time to really think about what goodbyes mean. They're almost always for the best, no matter how painful. DeMoNiKa PS: It was nice writing for all of you. Keep reading F.U.C.K. and other zines, and keep thinking and questioning everything. Goodbye, everyone. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... = = Internet : jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = gote land +27.31.441115 = = Arrested Development +31.77.3547477 = = Global Chaos +61.2.681.2837 = = Chemical Persuasion 203.324.0894 Undrgrnd Indust/Inc. 207.490.2158 = = Damnation 212.861.0580 that stupid place 215.985.0462 = = Hacker's Haven 303.516.9969 PheedbacK ----down---- = = E.L.F. (NUP) 314.272.3426 Misery 318.625.4532 = = Dungeon Sys. Inc. 410.263.2258 Psykodelik Images 407.834.4576 = = Paradise Lost 414.476.3181 Black SunShine 513.891.3465 = = underworld_1995.com 514.683.1894 Digital Fallout 516.378.6640 = = PSYCHOSiS 613.836.7211 Bad Trip 615.870.8805 = = Plan 9 716.881.3663 suicidal chaos 718.592.1083 = = Damaged 801.944.7353 The Death Star Bar 805.872.3151 = = Purple Hell 806.791.0747 Atrocity Exhibition 905.796.3385 = = Phoenix Modernz 908.830.8265 The Keg 914.234.9674 = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Files through Anon FTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.PRISM.NET/pub/users/mercuri/zines/fuck = = FTP.WINTERNET.COM/users/craigb/fuck = = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = = ETEXT.ARCHIVE.UMICH.EDU - /pub/Zines/FUCK = = FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM - /users/rage/zines/fuck = = Files through WWW: http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.prism.net/zineworld/fuck/ = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=