=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= I Am Okay --------- Hi. It's been awhile since I've written anything that hasn't been assigned to me by a teacher to improve my grades. It's been awhile since I've even felt motivated to write a piece about what has been going on in my head. I've updated my online journal periodically, but I haven't really written anything that I feel should be publicly released. Until now. Over the past couple of months, my life has changed a great deal. I have moved away from my friends and entered Western Reserve Academy, a prestigious boarding school in Hudson, Ohio. This school is for the most part guaranteed to make my future bright and to bring in mad cash flow as my adolescent years turn into adulthood. But, it's not to say that there hasn't been some struggle with this change. Indeed, there has been a great deal of it. First off was saying bye to my friends. Though I knew I'd see them again, nearly every weekend actually, I knew that I'd be missing seeing their faces daily. Right now the impact of them not being around has really settled in and I know that I miss seeing the familiarity and complacency that I once held such contemptuous scorn for. I long for the days when things were 'normal.' Things aren't quite so 'normal' anymore. For better or for worse. A few days before going up to school, I seized the day and tried to start a relationship with a girl I'd been scoping out for nearly 6 months. A few days after school started, the thing blew up in my face. Needless to say, we are no longer together. At first all of these changes totally ripped me apart. I was away from and distanced from everyone and everything I loved. But I figured out that there is a changeless core inside of me. A sense of value and direction has overtaken my life and I am actively pursuing setting roles and goals in my life, and coming through with commitments to myself. The long term goal is mastery of self, and public victory. A sense of honor is building inside of myself. It would be easy to blame my environment for what was happening to me and to let myself deteriorate into nothing. But I have chosen a responsible stance and have come back with a vengeance. I will not let my feelings control me, I will empower myself to act in the correct manner, and I will become a better person because of it. Most people let others act upon them without ever realizing that they hold the key to their own happiness. I lived that way for too long. So if right now you're kind of in a lull and you feel like you are slipping towards depression, remember this. You are in charge of your own destiny. You control your own life. Act or be acted upon. And finally, remember, you are fundamentally okay. We are in charge of our own happiness. -dropcomm =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = = WWW http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = = http://www.simunye.com/fuck = = http://www.dis.org/se7en/fuck = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=